it will be 11 months that Brittany is gone. So why does it still hurt so much :o( We got a new puppy last Tuesday. He is a beautiful little 2 month old mastiff and we all just love him to death. But even though we have him the pain I feel from not having her is still there :o( Why? I feel so "not normal" why am I still grieving after 11 months? I do have to say I have gotten better I don't cry as often but I when I do I break down and sob :o(
Funny thing too this little pup reminds me so much of her - he does so many similar things already - one thing in particular that really reminds me of her is when I am preparing his food - just the way he stands and then he will spin around and as I am walking to put his bowl down he will walk along side of me and kind of jump - she did that almost EVERY time I would feed her :o) I have also slipped several times and called him "Britt" - his name is Gabriel. I am hoping he will be able to help my heart heal and I keep remembering a quote from Joe Pesci (I know crazy person to quote right LOL) but in Lethal Weapon 4 there was a part where Riggs was at his wife's grave and he was contemplating marrying Lorna and Joe Pesci comes along and tells him the story of his frog "froggy" and how he lost his frog but then Riggs and Murtaugh came along and he said how they weren't "better" friends than Froggy they were just "different" and I keep telling myself the same thing - Brittany will always always be my special precious girl and now I have Gabriel who will always be my precious boy :o)
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