Having a hard time again :o(

I just miss her so much :o( It was 2 months yesterday that we lost her :o( I keep hearing the vet say "she's gone" :o( I just can't get her out of my head again. I was doing ok for a while I could even talk about her and just laugh and not get sad but once again it has hit me like a ton of bricks. I miss everything about her. I miss that face looking up at me while I am cooking dinner. I miss her greeting me at the door with a shoe in her mouth. I miss her standing by my bed in the middle of the night trying to wake to let her out - she wouldn't bark loud she knew she had to use her "inside" bark LOL so she would bark really quietly - at first - then it would get louder until I got up. Smart cookie. We are going to get another Mastiff - hopefully we will have one by the end of the year. I am trying to take my mind off it until then but so many things keep reminding me of Brittany. I keep thinking how it is spring and the weather is getting so nice and warm and how she used to love to sit out on the patio and just relax. I used to love giving her a bath on a nice warm day and then just letting her "dry" in the sun. She always got so tired and relaxed after a bath :o) She was such a good girl :o) My sweet Brittany.